Hello there, fellow bloggers, I'm back to actually go into a teenage girls head, about life. Life in general, to be exact.
So let's say there are mothers actually reading this blog, I want you to understand that in a teenage girl's head, everything a parent says is wrong, no matter how right it is, it's wrong. For one reason and one reason only, we only want to be accepted for who we are, now you would think I'm talking about an average teenage girl, no I'm not, I'm actually talking about the average emo girl.
The only reason why mothers of emo teens think that they are "abnormal" is because these mothers didn't grow up with the pressure of acceptance, not even my own mother understands that I want her to accept me for who I am.
One thing is not being accepted by a person who doesn't have that special bond, but another thing is not being accepted by a mother. I know how that feels.
A few months back, around May, I believe, I was hospitalized, and sent in to a adolescent psychiatric unit, and, I remember when my mother had came in to talk to my doctors about my stay, and why i was staying and what not. . . they called me in so that we could alll talk, and then, my mother brought up the time I decided to come out, then my doctor had asked me if the reason why I acted out was because I felt that she didn't accept me, I couldn't hold it in and I told her that, that was exactly the reason why I acted out, all I wanted was acceptance, and I've yet to discover acceptance from my own mother.
And again, to the mother's who are reading this, if you think that just because your straight-A, beautiful, captain of the cheerleading squad doesn't need acceptance, well, I'm sorry to say, but you are DEAD wrong. I may not know how those girls really are, but I've been around, i watch reality television. They HUNGER acceptance, why do you think they have so many friends? It's obviously not because they are the most popu;ar girl in school, it's because deep dow, they know that if something goes wrong, the smallest thing, it doesn't matter, that would end their 'lives', that is why, you may see your daughter with maybe the hottest guy in school, they probably don't have anything in common, they're just with each other for the mind-blowing teen sex. You will probably never see your daughter with Simple Sammy, or Random Randy, just that typical Sexy Sean, who is prbably the dimwit of the century.
Probably the only type of girl that has no problem with acceptance is the typical "Geek", It's like they know that maybe 6 or 7 years into their lives they will be somebody. I remember when I was a geek, I was smart, I had hidden over-confidence, I wore those thick rimmed glasses (once but they are annoying), I knew more words than my head could contain, I had math in my pockets, I knew most of history, and I had science coming out of my ass, and i didn't have that beauty shining out of me. Geeks didn't need to have people on their backs, expecting them to do great things, they are always doing great things, and they had friends who stood by their side no matter what.
I had that. . .
But I threw all of that away, to become that emo girl you'll see walking down the street, with her music pounding on her eardrums, telling hersellf that, no one really understands, unless they've experience what she's experienced, the constant humiliation of trying to believe that there's a brighter day coming after, but there would never be a brighter day coming after, if there isn't any aceptance, not even from her own mother. . .
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