Is Word Count Really Important?

Hey guys, it's me! Yes, yes! It's me. I'm here to ask questions that won't get any answers, but someone will see it and will understand!

So, I'm an avid fanfiction writer whenever I have the time, and right now, I'm sort of working one one that's really just for me. But I find myself in a predicament where I'm trying to make the story as complex and interesting as possible, but I'm worth crap at reaching the proper word count. Here's the thing, because there's always a thing to be "here'd", there are times when I find myself struggling to make the story as descriptive as I can all while trying to visualize myself in this world that someone created and I'm borrowing for the little time I'll be working on it. I can't say it's hard for me, but if the story is in first person, I can do it without a problem, making the reader feel like it's their story, but hen it comes to third person or biographical, I'm worth shit.

Yeah, yeah, you're probably thinking that I have the confidence sky high if even though I come up short compared to the 25% that actually write good fanfiction, or the 70% of writers who have a best selling, actually published book, I want you all to know that when I really put my mind to it, I can make a damn good story. Believe it or not, not too long ago, I went through my old desktop to see if there were things there that I would like to resurrect, and it turns out there is and I am bringing it back to life. No you don't get any details because you have no faith in me!

Well I have strayed, bad habits die hard. So here's where word count comes into play

Literary Emotions!

Yes, that rosy pink blush on her face as she realized her feelings for that man, or the boisterous laugh from the pompous ass of a superior. Fucking literary emotions. It's come to my attention that even though I can go out and experience almost 7 emotions during one walk in the city, I can't seem to get that perfect sequence of words to express the feeling I felt at that moment. Comparisons just aren't enough, I don't want my readers to wonder what the equivalent of a feeling is. When I write, I always end up saying something cheesy or cliche like "matter-of-factly" like there wasn't another way of writing it, or when I try describe the mix of emotions during a steamy scene between lovers, like you know the story of me and Abby, meaning I should have enough experience in being able to express these feelings into words. E.L. James had a better time doing this.

Ack, my question! Have you ever found yourself stuck trying to come up with words for something you really don't understand yourself? Ahh, you Lurkers are just that... Lurkers I'm already asking for too much from you. Have a good day you beautiful Lurkers.